Happiness is a funny thing. Much like having to call customer service with a heated dispute claim, it never seems to be in the office when you need it most.
If you chase it, it will run
Since my situation has changed and I’m starting to remember the things I’d sworn never to forget, but did, I’m finding happiness sneaking into everything I do lately.
And I’m doing things I haven’t done, nor realized that I haven’t, in ages.
Take today for instance.
It’s hot where I am and this type of hot comes packing a smothering blanket of humidity to add to the general all around misery.
Despite it all, I had the windows down and the music up on the way home from work and I didn’t care who heard me or what they thought.
What startled me was that I couldn’t recall the last time I’d done that.
CeeLee. Ms. The Music is My Life. I honestly can’t remember when I haven’t been riding in total silence.
Well…except when Duck rides shotgun and commandeers the radio to torture me instead of my turning it up and turning it loud. To my choice of music.
Oh the humanity of it all
It was a scary moment, having my own face to face meet and greet with reality. So many little enjoyments have gone by the wayside while I was just trying to survive the day to day activities and hiding within my own mind, the place where I never have to second guess my remarks or worry that my funny isn’t necessarily your funny.
It’s as if I’m starting to finally be able to shake myself awake after a long nightmare.
Every day adds another bit of happiness and with it, another piece of me comes back.